I spoke with Nick on the phone yesterday. For the first time in... 6+ months.
He wants to see me in March, when he flies out to Vegas for a few days with some of his friends. We've been talking back and forth about it via email and I thought it best to call him and get everything out of the way, so that we would be finished.
I wish I could say that hearing the sound of his voice had no effect on me. But I would be lying if I said that. I wholeheartedly wanted to marry him and spend the rest of my life making us happy and successful. I have no doubt in my mind that we would have been, too.
But he did not want to undergo the temporary discomfort of a long-distance relationship that would allow me to move back to NJ in a way that didn't burn the relationship with my family. And he didn't want to think about moving out here. Not seriously, anyway.
It took a long, long time for me to accept that. To live with that. To be ok with that.
But I am now.
He is a beautiful road not taken and that's all he'll ever be to me. And that's ok.
Friday, December 9, 2011
Sunday, December 4, 2011
I joined the last square to my granny square blanket last night and finished weaving in all the ends. I'm rather pleased with the finished project:
And as you can see in the following pictures, so is my mother... =)
I'm in the process of deciding which project to start working on next... I have two lovely skeins of road to china yarn (in purple and in cream) as well as 3 skeins of Lorna's Laces Honor in "cedar." I also have about 5 balls of mulberry silk yarn, plus new sock yarn and a bunch of others.
Off to a craft fair for now!
Friday, December 2, 2011
I know it's a bit early for the annual self-reflections to start, but here's my 2011 recapped via photos:
Studying for the bar exam. This consumed my life from December 2010-February 22, 2011.
My boyfriend and I broke up the last night of the February bar exam. My heart was smashed. I'm still recovering from the emotional repercussions (yay for emotional unavailability!).
The biggest benefit to moving to CA after law school? Getting to spend lots of time with my adorable nieces and nephews.
Monday afternoon champagne to celebrate my 26th birthday, with my LA best friend, Sarah. She made my birthday really special. There's an embarrassing video of me riding a mechanical bull on facebook to prove it.
My best friend Noah came to visit me in LA this year. We spent a fun week eating delicious food, seeing several movies, and reading Team of Rivals out loud to each other. I miss him. =(
One of the benefits of living in Los Angeles? Getting to see some of your favorite actors spending a Sunday afternoon just hanging out at the bar (that's Jason Segel).
Other favorite things about LA? Jasmine and Jacaranda season! Nothing helps heal a broken heart more than the intoxicating scent of jasmine on fresh air...
... passing the CA bar exam also helped with the broken heart tremendously.
In 2011, I attended a few musical and culturally-southern CA activities, including a show at the El Rey Theater with Sarah, watching Butch Cassidy and the Sun Dance kid with Kareem, attending Doheny Days Summer Music Festival to see Cake, attending my first Kings hockey game (go Devils!), lots of karaoke nights and seeing Gavin Degraw, David Cook, and Carolina Liars down in Pamona!
I took my first trip to Vegas with friends-- it was fantastic!
I went to several parties and events sponsored by St. Mary's, including their annual gala and holiday party.
And finally, officially getting sworn in as an attorney in CA!
This year has been very challenging but a lot of great stuff has come out of it. I can't wait for 2012-- I know it's going to be my greatest year!